Date: November 2, 2010
"I’m kinda liking him the past few days you know, for all the right reason. He’s beyond amazing, he’s smart, he’s funny, he’s cute and to top it off, we get along so well. He’s such a good influence to me, like I actually do my homeworks cause at the end of the day he’d text me If I got notes on this class and of course I don’t wanna seem irresponsible. I have so much respect for him that I watch what I say, cause there was a time that he told me… "Claud, medyo foul na yan ha" And I wasn’t even talking about him. I don’t even cut class most esp the classes I have with him which is 5 out of 8. We hang out on all breaks and if my next class isn’t with him, we’d still go up together. And sometimes when I say I’ll follow, he’d still wait for me. That would not make me want to cut. There was a time in our morning class where he hugged me good morning, I moved away cause I told him I didn’t shower… cause I didn’t go home. He was like, "Nag 18 ka lang you’re not gonna go home na" He’s been there all along and I took things lightly, I didn’t think. As much as I don’t wanna regret it, I just wish it didn’t happen. “
I just miss this friend, a lot. And I forgot how close we are, I know we are but I was too mad it’s like I programmed myself to forget things and now I can’t even remember how it felt like. But yeah, now I slightly remember these after reading my post (above). There was one time I was sitting at the couch with my other friend, he’d squeeze himself to make the three of us fit. I remember not wanting to admit to myself or to anyone how jealous I became when he got close to my other girl friend. We were in one hotel room, I wasn’t jealous because of the girl, I was jealous because of how he acted around her in front of me. I don’t know, I guess I wasn’t use to seeing him making kulit to anyone else but me. He’s like my very first good friend in CSB. I know its been more than a year but I never really got over it.
It was the 3 of us, him and my other guy friend whom I equally miss as well :( We all had the same classes and breaks so they were the ones I was always with. How I miss my very first term in CSB!